speechless

we're playing game just now.

i like this kind of game, really funny. =D

ouh, n btw.

i wud really like to answer the "real answer".

i wish i cud.damn it.

even it just a part of game to u, maybe.

but is sounds kinda real to me.

thanks for making my day. =D

have you ever felt..

erm, haha. boleh tak nak gelak kuat2?
entah, rasa kelakar pon ada jugak.
macam mimpi pon ada jugak.
ok, masa school dulu, aku ada crush kat few guys.
alaa, biasa lah, cintan2 monyet dulu2..
takkan korang tak de kot masa kat school dulu?
tipu mungkin? haha
ok, fyi, masa aku zaman school dulu, org gelar aku as 'nerd'' kot.
aku pon tak tau kenapa, nak kata aku pandai or tak berkawan ngan org,
rasanya aku dulu2 juara ponteng sekolah and also terkenal as malas buat homework.
tp ok what, aku still boleh catch up study pe?HAHA
erm, ok, nak dijadikan cerita, guys yg aku crush ni, semua aku tak pernah sembang or what.
pendek kata, entah dorang tau kewujudan aku ke tak nye.. iskkk
sampai la aku masuk u ni..
then tiba2 kat fb, aku boleh berjumpa semua kawan aku, termasuk org yg aku crush dulu2.
the unexpected thing is, dorang recognize aku?
so, terharu la sy? HAAHA
almost all of the guys yg pernah aku suka, terjumpa balik ok..
macam magik gitu? ok, bukan aku nak perasan aku famous,cantik or what.
tp aku rasa kelakar, yg tu je aku rasa.
tp tu lahh, macam sudah sedia maklum..
sy sekali pernah suka org, sy takkan suka org tu buat kali ke2.
i'm not tat kind of person, i don't like to look back..just looking forward,towards the future.
so, get what i mean by that? =p

ok, nak stop tulis, rasa geli.huishh

tp skg, sy..erm.. kat org yg pernah sy avoid dulu2 dikala beliau mahu berkawan dgn sy. and yg best, dia bukan kawan school sy? i really like bout that fact. =D

yeah, so true. =p

apple hairstyle

ok, sgt comeyh.
gahhh, kiutnyeeeeeeee

comeyh kan semua.. tapi..



saye tak nak potong rambut jadi pendek?
so, decide untuk menjadi seperti beliau di bawah ini.
=)

i really like her. she's my fav idol. =p

at last i've got a good news!

ok, aku sangat happy skg niyhh!
seriusly aku takot gila if tak dapat degree kat shah alam..
sebab..sebab..ermm..
hehehe..

so, nampaknya aku boleh la nak menunaikan 'impian' aku tu, since aku ade kat shah alam.
^^,

p/s : thanx to mardhiah n my bro, kerana mengajar cara untuk membuat print screen. hakhak
ok, aku tau aku semangat. hah.

I'll back off so you can live better.

I’ll back off so you can live
Say it directly, looking at me
Say it looking into my eyes
Did you just say you wanted to break up?
Did you want to end it with me?

I Know.. You probably got a lady
I Know.. You probably got sick of me
Even though the tears are rushing to me

I’ll back off so you can live
That is all I can say
I’ll forget you so you can live better
So that you’ll be happy without me
The love that you tossed away, you can take it
Don’t even leave a trace behind and take it all
Don’t even say you’re sorry
Don’t worry about me

Your lips that told me that you were going to leave
Why does it give me a reason to be angry today?
I need to stop you, the words don’t go out
And you are already moving far apart

I know.. You will forget me
I know.. I will really hate you
Even though you know everything

You! The reason I lived
You! Were all I wanted
You! It was me who only looked at you

Why? Why are you leaving?
Why? Why are you tossing me away?
If you were going to be like this
Why did you love me in the first place?

Do you happen to remember that day?
That day when we first met
I still remember it
The promise you made to me
That you will only care for me
That you will only protect me
That you will only love me
I believed your lies, I believed it

Did you really love me?
I’ll forget you so you can live better
Goodbye..

seriously, it's a nice song. you've gotta listen to it. thumb's up!
oh btw, this song makes me kind of "sentap".
that lyric, well, what can i say, it's kind of fit with me.

lets compare the scars, shall we?

haha, entahla. aku rasa today semua ada masalah.
ok, really2 big probs..
everyone's searching for me.. seeking for my help..
to be there with them no matter what happen..
but, it's really ok with me, i'm fine with them..
i'm glad that i can help them at least, kurangkan the burden on their shoulder..
tp, ade jugak sesetengah pihak aku tak mampu tolong, i'm sorry with that..i'm really sorry..
my bad.. =(

haha, tp ade 1 persamaan antara dorang semua..
nak tahu ape?
it's about my relationship with them..
honestly, dorang tak kenal lame pon aku.
mostly, just jumpe for 1,2 times only..tak pon, yg pernah gadoh lame gile ke, 5-6 years ok..
tupp2, dorang percayekan aku, n what amaze me, they're telling me the prob that they may never tell that to their friends, even the close one maybe..
that part, really.. i'm really touching with that part..
thanks for trusting me u guys.. please be strong no matter what happens k outside there..
if i can deal with very critical time of my life, so i bet u guys also can deal it with ur own probs k?
but hey, i'll always be there for u guys, i'll always lend my shoulder to you guys..

ouh, btw, i notice that, bout the guy that i like..
i think it's the best for me to bury my feeling..
cuz, it's already 'too little too late'..
so, we are meant to be friends only, i guess..
ouh n to u too..thanks for trusting me also..
=)

yeap, dear my heart..please..always..remember this.. >.<

dear hearts,

"you
are
my
friends,
should
i
be
thankful
because
you
are
my
friend
or
should
i
cry
because
that's
all
we
will
ever
be?"

thanks for showing who you really are

yes, seriously, thanks a lot..
i mean seriously, are you my friend? my bestfriend? lover memang tak lahhh
jauh panggang dr api.
ko cakap ko kawan aku, tp aku tak rase pon.
dulu ko yg terhegeh nak kawan ngan aku.
tp skg, nampaknye aku lak yg camtuh kan?
tp standard lah dulu kan, guys nak berkenalan ngan girls, mesti lah girls takkan layan sgt.
it takes time ok for girl to know them better, even as friends only ke..
tp skg, terbalik lakkk.
oih, aku cerite kat ko bende yg tak mungkin aku akan cerite kat org lain..
tp, ko sikit pon tak appreciate ape yg aku cerite..
ye, aku bodoh, bodoh sebab percayekan ko..

i think i like u know..
cuz, y i'm crying?
shit.damn it.

btw, i don't like guy who's smoking.

hell yeah, this is me.

i don't like guy who is kind of "jiwang". so just save your sweet words in your mouth.
i'm sorry.
and i'm not the type of girl that like flowers and teddy either
i like guys who always make me in a good mood, nice to me.
that's all. who knows how to appreciate me, by all means..

but when i said that i don't like boys with sweet words, it doesn't mean that the boy can talk whatever he wants, with such a rude word to me, especially in a misunderstanding situation.

the most important one's.
F.U.N.N.Y.

crap!

it's been a LONG time we haven't contacted with each other, aren't we?
but..
why...
this time...
it seems like...
i'm missing you...
and i like you...
i used to call you friend for 1 year back then..
till now...
i didn't expect to call you more than that...
but now...
something feels not right...
in my mind...
my heart...



am i falling in love again? i hope not...
but you'll never ever find out about this...
NEVER...
i'm pretty damn good in hiding feelings...



"i sayang you as kawan, that's for sure"

yeahh! after 5 hours q-ing, she managed to get the tix! =D
seriously,it's pretty hectic out there.
event tho the event starts at 12 pm, but hundreds of people already in a line on 10 am onwards on that day as they didn't wanna miss a chance to grab the pass, including this owner of the pic, sab!
i felt so terrible, letting her doing what i'm supposed to do.
*deep apologize from the bottom of my heart, and i'll pay back the same thing in returns as requested by you. (buying ne-yo's tix.)
i guess on the day of concert, i'll have to skip my lecture class as it'll be held on thursday, and i've to go to stadium bukit jalil earlier than i've ever expected and GOT to be there before 3 pm, eventho' the concert starts at 8 pm. i dun wanna be at the back, as i hold the free standing pass!! everything is free! i swear that there will be a lot of people at that 3 pm time..pretty scary uh korean singer fans? >.<

oh btw, this thing was handled by digi n UMM, and on that day also, DIGI took a lot of pics.
surprisingly, Sab was also part of that picts! there was 2 picts of her! HAHA

lets see if you guys can find her, i'm not making up any story, it's true she's there.(already confirmed by her. =p)

too many people. >,<

my heart is kind of trembling

i'm so super duper happy..
there's no beautiful words that can describe my feeling this moment!
thanks God, for making my wish come true, and plus, things are really go so smoothly, beyond my expectation.
can't wait for 13/1/11. =D
n thanks sab, u're forever, always, my dearest friend.. =)

yeah, i know, i'm completely engrossed with korean thingy, till at a point where i don't even bother at all what's happening around me. i don't wanna know bout that.
i love the fact that i'm a korean maniac now.
yeah, sometimes i know that, i'm kinda waste a lot of money, my precious time, for this korean thingy which might not be giving me any benefit at all in returns.
but, i love my life, i love this so-called-pathetic-life of mine.

i don't ever bother to waste a lot of money, doing any other useless things regarding this matter,
as that's only the remedy to get me away from remembering stupid moments or any hardships that i've to face last time. sucks. bullshit.that's all i can say..

but now..i miss my friends..
i really2 miss them...

just..leave me alone..

daebak!!!super daebak!!

daebak = awesome!
bwahahahahahaahah!
i'm so happy right now!
i'm so SHOCK right now, feels like going to turn to be a BAD GIRL..
BREATH IN BREATH OUT, need oxygen.. LMAO..haha..
I LIKE YOU THE BEST! so BEAUTIFUL!! =ppp
*only b2uties know what i mean* =.=!

hell yeah! they're going to come to Malaysia once again, in early of January!
i'm SO excited to death already!
last time, i missed their fan meeting. *double sigh!*
now, i can juz wipe away my bloody tears for being sooo regretful not going to their showcase last time!
they're going to have kpop party in malaysia!!woot2!!aren't u guys excited about that??=pp

-counting my money already- *_*

LMAO!

cerita ini sangat lawak!

seriously, lawak gila yg amat.
tetiap malam pukul 3,4 pagi gelak kuat2 tengok cerita niyhh.
mana tak nyee parents aku tak marah. hahaha
tp serius, dah ku cuba sedaya upaya untuk menahan nafsu gelak dalam diri ini..
tp ku tak terdaya. hahaha

running man is the most hilarious korean variety show that i've ever seen..
daebak!daebak!super daebak!


http://engsub.tumblr.com/runningman

this link will lead you to 'laughter room'. so, be prepare! HAHAHA

babo (in korean means stupid)

haha, i'm soo into b2st now..errr

from right : hyun seung and gi kwang
now i realised, i like people who look and act stupid.hahaha
sorry to say this, but these two boys,ermm..kinda stupid?hahaha
hyun seung : "why water is water?"
all of the group members : blurrr (why he's asking such question?)

gi kwang : "noona, if we passed this theory exam, then we can take practical test right?"
noona : "yes!"
gi kwang : "ouh, if that so, if not pass this theory exam, then we cannot take practical test right?"
noona: "grrrr..." (why is this boy asking the same question again?)


but to me, this is one of their charms that attracts me. =ppp

and!luckily me, they're 20 years old.HAHAHA.(what's so lucky bout this?huh.)

i'm kind of 'lalang'.

sorry, THEY're able to grab my attention now.
starting from this moment, will not update bout THEM..
it's not that i'm started to hate THEM, don't get me wrong..
it just, my love towards them is starting to fade away slowly..sighh

THEY=beast
THEM=i think u know 'who' i used to be loyal to.. haha

a.j, ^____^

please don't be selfish

dah pukul 4am skg, tp tak de mood nak tido.haishh.
maybe still terkejut news sal jonghyun.haha.
seriusly cam bom nuklear meletop tibe2 je, n banyak org mati,antaranye negare korea terutamanye, then jepun,china,MALAYSIA pun termasuk jugak, singapore,thailand,indonesia.
pendek kate, sume negare asia tenggare. barat pun ade jugak, maybe just terkene sipi2 je.=p
fyi, mati=fans yg bersedih pabile tahu si mamat jonghyun nih dah ade gf, baru reveal arinih.
tolong lah, jangan mati, please wake up, adeyhhh..
bak kate pepatah, "bersatu kite teguh, bercerai kite roboh".
so, janganlah nak roboh2kan lg..
ye, sy pun sedih, tp perluke nak sedih??we should be happy right??
seriously, sy berase sgt sedih about jonghyun n shin se kyung..
baru sebulan kapel, dah terkantoi everything..
and skg, riuh satu dunie sal bende niyh..cam berite gempar gituu..

my point of this story, is not bout him, but it is about life as an artist is really hard..
dahla nak kene entertain people 24 hours, penat kot..
and pantang ade salah sikit, siap lah nanti kene attack, dorang pun pressure gile jdnye..
tingkah laku sume nak kene jage lah, lau tidak nanti tak pasal2 kene bash..
haishh, they're just normal people, wants to have a normal life..
bg sy, sgt kesian if sape2 jd artist, kene tanggung beban yg agak besar..
niyh bout issue dating, just let them be like that..itu hak mereka..ade paham?adeyhh..

tp seriusly, i hope that i'll not be fated with any artist, or any famous people lahh..
tak nak!!bukannye aku berdreaming lebeyh weyh cakap dapat org camtuhhh..
but who knows right?all things that happen in this world are well planned by God..
please God, don't let it be.. it just, tak larat dah nak face prob yg macam nihh..
maksud sy, bukannye kite buat masalah pun, tp org lain yg buat masalah, tp pedih and sakitnye kite yg dapat!kite kene plg teruk!
so in jonghyun case, he and his partner leyh je lead a happy life,tp disebabkan fans, hidop dorang pun cam tak brape happy..
i really KNOW SO WELL that feeling..sakit, yes, sakit yg amat..
bile prob bukan sebab dibuat oleh diri sendiri, tp org lain yg bikin prob, kite kene effect nye jugak, tak payah cakaplaa..take times weyh nak fully recover..
bende niyh timbul sebab isu "penting diri sendiri".
maybe prob aku tak same cam jonghyun, memang sgt tak same, tp the "item" that lead those things to happen lah yg same..selfish, once again i repeat it..

seriusly, i really pity that girl, she is innocent, doesn't do anything wrong, suddenly people bash her just like that..
i'm crying right now writing this, cuz i know, it's really hurt when people just bashing like that to u, n moreover, when they start to do the cruel things to u..
until one moment, u'll said to urself.."why is this happening to me?am i being so bad in my life just now?"
u'll just keep asking that quest to urself, eventhough u know the real answer, but the situation is making like u're the one that cause the messy.

hmm, i don't know how will that girl handle that situation..hope she'll be fine, nothing bad happens to her..
cuz, it's hard for me to settle down my prob..
please, i don't want to be involve in those kinds of 'incidents' anymore..

it's almost 1 year.

what's the title about?
for those who are close with me might know this thing..
and..haha..i'm already sick of the questions of dozen of people keep repeating the same question..
and, for sure lah, i'll give the same answer in returns, despite of how many times these people asked.. i know that they're not satisfied with my answer actually, that's why they keep on digging it. >__<
sometimes yeah, have to admit that it kinds of annoying and irritating to answer it millions of times!
especially to the creature who names as a 'guy'..
that's why i rarely open my facebook account know. =_=!!

i'm pretty sure that all the people around me know that i'm such a big fan to kpop artists now. just like i'm addicted to drug i guess?haha..
fyi, i have this 'unbelievable' feeling about korean stuffs after i've to face tons of huge things..
well, it's actually happened about 9-10 months ago..
i tell u what, that period was the horrible period that i've to suffer all by myself..
it was really worst than a nightmare, and for god sake, i HOPE that it was JUST only a nightmare.. but it was real..damn real..and, seriously, i'm really tired..
till the last moment, i said to myself, " i should be happy that i'm still survive, i shouldn't be thinking about the past, and just focus to the future, and lastly..enjoy my life to the max while i'm still young.."
but err.. did i just being extremely over enjoy for the time being now? especially bout korean thingy? damn it. HAHAHA (seriously need a remedy to chase this korean dilemmas away. it's getting worst everyday.someone please call 911. heh )

there was one time when i felt really angry with my lecturer.
he said " go on, just keep on dreaming bout those stuffs. bout ur bf that u'll only meet in ur dreams everynight"
actually both of his eyes were focused on my keychain at my bag, while he said that kind of stuff.he saw lee taemin picture on that keychain..
i know, most of the people will feel super duper irritated right, when someone is saying something so spontaneously out of his mouth, didn't even watch out every single words that they're saying to us..
at that time, my heart said, "can i just zipped his mouth off?"aishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..
but i knew very well that lecturer, he's that type of man, not thinking first before saying..aigoo..

but, what i want to point out is not bout the childish stuffs that i'm hanging on the bag..
well, yeah, it's true that i really like them a lot. very2 much ok?!
i'll rather just do anything for them..anything!! err..sounds like a fanatic fan already i guess??aisshh
ok2, back to the point..erm..
for the time being now, i know that i'm dreaming about this SHINee bfs..which i also know that the chances that i'm going to be close with those boys is 99% beyond my expectation..i mean, almost every girls in this universe have this dream right?so, hah! i'm not the only exception to this!it's a normal feeling for us girls to have this kind of feelings!
err, why i like to talk about nonsense things again, far away from the real topic? T_T

ok2, i'll just expressed it seriously in words from the bottom of my heart..
the reasons why i'm attracted to this korean stuffs are just to get rid off away something out of my mind, and also, currently everyone knows that i just love those SHINee boys right? i seriously want to find someone that can kick my ass out from my dream world (all the korean thingy) to the real world.. (but please, don't kick it for real, i still love my own butt. HAHA)
if there is one guy that can make me fall for him, help me move out to the real world, face the reality and challenges in this whole wide world, i'll not feel hesitated at all to accept him as a partner of my entire life..

but seriously, i've found that it is REALLY hard for me to be friend with any man nowadays. it is not because of me being too choosy.. all those stuffs about korean boys that i really adore about them is their attitude..they are really...ahhh..too hard for me to explain it, it is so unexplainable, which in other words, they're so AMAZING..one of the attitudes that i really like about them is they always being humble to others..and, keeps on smiling 24/7.. =D. it is not because of the word "celebrities" is making them have to do those kind of sweetest things, but it comes out naturally from them..it just pop out like that, seriously, i'm not making any stories about that =_=!!
so, maybe that's why it's hard for me to accept any kind of man now..i'm not looking on the outside, i'm looking on the inside..because ur physical appearances that u've always been proud of about will not last any longer, it'll just fade away after 10,20 years later..but, if u managed to discover something which it is comes from inside of someone's body, then, that's what i called 'beautiful', which it is something that deserve for us to be praising or proud of that precious 'stuffs'..that 'stuffs', not just it'll remain longer, but also, eternity..

so, who dare to take the challenge after knowing the 'qualifications'?? HAHA =pp



and, i'm still in my dream world after all..
i don't like the real world..seriously i don't like it at all, every secs of my heart beats..

funnyyyy

seriously, i'm laughing so damn fucking hard when i saw 'that' in someone's tumblr that i've found just now.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
maybe because i also have the same experienced like that person did? =p

what is 'that'?

funny isn't it.?HAHAHAHAHHAHHA
arghh, i'm laughing for the hundred times i guess. =p

i really like her answer, 'skydiving'. wahahhaha

AWET MUDA

this pic when he was 16 years old.
(how could a guy look so adorable at that age?)





this is d current pic, he's 20 years old now.
(but, he still have that kind of childish face, or shud i say, "awet muda"?. care to share me some of ur tips to look younger? =p)

but what more important is, he's not fake!
fake here means WENT THROUGH A PLASTIC SURGERY.

i'm so pissed off right now

yeap, yg amat. seriusly.
yahh, perlu ke nak over reacted till you've caused a problem to him?
by any chance, did you noticed dat u have injured him?
thanx to you, he can do WELL in his performance now..
singing while SITTING?!
i'm really so damn pissed off with a-who-so-called-shawol fan perhaps.
i mean, ARE YOU REALLY A SHAWOL?
i think that you should be proud, making them singing in a rough state.
back off, screw you..you're worst than a nut.

one guy have a problem with his ankle accidentally, causing him n the other members cannot dance like they always enjoy to do.

(to indon people, please behave or restrain urself from doing something unexpected for d next time when any stars coming to ur hometown.)

katak oh katak.

currently, my mood is = katak.
y katak? because i like katak.
y i like katak?because katak is cute...
(something is definitely going wrong with me today, talking nonsense again n again, juz like 2pm song. =p)

perhaps, wud u like to see the pictures that prove that katak is adorable,cute,funny,beautiful,bla,bla,bla..........

PLUSH TOYS

OTHER CUTE STUFFS

AND...THIS IS MY DREAM.. =D

i'm sooo gonna have this baby's stuffs for my baby, in couple of years later laa of course..
is my child going to be end up like frog also? aishhh.

and also this stuffs.. =p

habeslah anak aku.. =p

heheheehehehehheeheheheh

title hari ini agak pelik..
yerlah, tetibe je gelak.gile ke hape?
adeyhh..
tuan2 dan puan2..
tolong jangan mempunyai tanggapan yg 'sedemikian' pabile melihat ape yg akan terpacul di bawah ini yer..
alaaaahhhh..cam lah korang tak de perasaan camnih jugak kann??HAHAHA
(or mungkin aku sorang je yg ade perasaan camnih?err)

TOLONG JANGAN SALAH ANGGAP KAT SAYE.SAYE HANYALAH MANUSIE BIASE SEPERTI KALIAN JUGAKK. ='(

ehemmm2..
saye akan berase lelaki itu HOT pabileeee ..........

rambut die panjang sgt kat bhgn depan kepale, sampai tertutup mata dgn tidak sengajanye. (sape suruh simpan panjang2?!)

bile org tuh ade bear yg besar gedabak sebelah die.lg HOT kalau lebih besar.HAHA.jenuh nak mengangkat.

pemakaian beliau berkonsepkan hitam? (tak de lah sampai jd cam black metal tuhh)
tp seriusly sy suke tengok lelaki yg berkulit cerah memakai pakaian berkaler hitam. OUTSTANDING.

ouh, n lupe nak cakap, + rambut panjang.heh.tp kene tengok jugak kene ngan muke ke tak.


pabile die memegang payung, cam ayu gitu.haha.tp tak de lah samapi nampak cam nyah.geli kot

comeyh lak payung die, ade renda2 gituu.pinjam bleyh bang?HAHA


and aku suke tengok senyuman org yg ade manisnye.i mean, lips n gigi die menampakkan die lg manis.org tertentu je ade 'manis' tu.

n..jeng jeng jengggg..nih kot plg aku suke.heh.. =pp

tak nak cakap kenape aku suke d last pic.
ok, bye! =p