please don't be selfish

dah pukul 4am skg, tp tak de mood nak tido.haishh.
maybe still terkejut news sal jonghyun.haha.
seriusly cam bom nuklear meletop tibe2 je, n banyak org mati,antaranye negare korea terutamanye, then jepun,china,MALAYSIA pun termasuk jugak, singapore,thailand,indonesia.
pendek kate, sume negare asia tenggare. barat pun ade jugak, maybe just terkene sipi2 je.=p
fyi, mati=fans yg bersedih pabile tahu si mamat jonghyun nih dah ade gf, baru reveal arinih.
tolong lah, jangan mati, please wake up, adeyhhh..
bak kate pepatah, "bersatu kite teguh, bercerai kite roboh".
so, janganlah nak roboh2kan lg..
ye, sy pun sedih, tp perluke nak sedih??we should be happy right??
seriously, sy berase sgt sedih about jonghyun n shin se kyung..
baru sebulan kapel, dah terkantoi everything..
and skg, riuh satu dunie sal bende niyh..cam berite gempar gituu..

my point of this story, is not bout him, but it is about life as an artist is really hard..
dahla nak kene entertain people 24 hours, penat kot..
and pantang ade salah sikit, siap lah nanti kene attack, dorang pun pressure gile jdnye..
tingkah laku sume nak kene jage lah, lau tidak nanti tak pasal2 kene bash..
haishh, they're just normal people, wants to have a normal life..
bg sy, sgt kesian if sape2 jd artist, kene tanggung beban yg agak besar..
niyh bout issue dating, just let them be like that..itu hak mereka..ade paham?adeyhh..

tp seriusly, i hope that i'll not be fated with any artist, or any famous people lahh..
tak nak!!bukannye aku berdreaming lebeyh weyh cakap dapat org camtuhhh..
but who knows right?all things that happen in this world are well planned by God..
please God, don't let it be.. it just, tak larat dah nak face prob yg macam nihh..
maksud sy, bukannye kite buat masalah pun, tp org lain yg buat masalah, tp pedih and sakitnye kite yg dapat!kite kene plg teruk!
so in jonghyun case, he and his partner leyh je lead a happy life,tp disebabkan fans, hidop dorang pun cam tak brape happy..
i really KNOW SO WELL that feeling..sakit, yes, sakit yg amat..
bile prob bukan sebab dibuat oleh diri sendiri, tp org lain yg bikin prob, kite kene effect nye jugak, tak payah cakaplaa..take times weyh nak fully recover..
bende niyh timbul sebab isu "penting diri sendiri".
maybe prob aku tak same cam jonghyun, memang sgt tak same, tp the "item" that lead those things to happen lah yg same..selfish, once again i repeat it..

seriusly, i really pity that girl, she is innocent, doesn't do anything wrong, suddenly people bash her just like that..
i'm crying right now writing this, cuz i know, it's really hurt when people just bashing like that to u, n moreover, when they start to do the cruel things to u..
until one moment, u'll said to urself.."why is this happening to me?am i being so bad in my life just now?"
u'll just keep asking that quest to urself, eventhough u know the real answer, but the situation is making like u're the one that cause the messy.

hmm, i don't know how will that girl handle that situation..hope she'll be fine, nothing bad happens to her..
cuz, it's hard for me to settle down my prob..
please, i don't want to be involve in those kinds of 'incidents' anymore..

it's almost 1 year.

what's the title about?
for those who are close with me might know this thing..
and..haha..i'm already sick of the questions of dozen of people keep repeating the same question..
and, for sure lah, i'll give the same answer in returns, despite of how many times these people asked.. i know that they're not satisfied with my answer actually, that's why they keep on digging it. >__<
sometimes yeah, have to admit that it kinds of annoying and irritating to answer it millions of times!
especially to the creature who names as a 'guy'..
that's why i rarely open my facebook account know. =_=!!

i'm pretty sure that all the people around me know that i'm such a big fan to kpop artists now. just like i'm addicted to drug i guess?haha..
fyi, i have this 'unbelievable' feeling about korean stuffs after i've to face tons of huge things..
well, it's actually happened about 9-10 months ago..
i tell u what, that period was the horrible period that i've to suffer all by myself..
it was really worst than a nightmare, and for god sake, i HOPE that it was JUST only a nightmare.. but it was real..damn real..and, seriously, i'm really tired..
till the last moment, i said to myself, " i should be happy that i'm still survive, i shouldn't be thinking about the past, and just focus to the future, and lastly..enjoy my life to the max while i'm still young.."
but err.. did i just being extremely over enjoy for the time being now? especially bout korean thingy? damn it. HAHAHA (seriously need a remedy to chase this korean dilemmas away. it's getting worst everyday.someone please call 911. heh )

there was one time when i felt really angry with my lecturer.
he said " go on, just keep on dreaming bout those stuffs. bout ur bf that u'll only meet in ur dreams everynight"
actually both of his eyes were focused on my keychain at my bag, while he said that kind of stuff.he saw lee taemin picture on that keychain..
i know, most of the people will feel super duper irritated right, when someone is saying something so spontaneously out of his mouth, didn't even watch out every single words that they're saying to us..
at that time, my heart said, "can i just zipped his mouth off?"aishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..
but i knew very well that lecturer, he's that type of man, not thinking first before saying..aigoo..

but, what i want to point out is not bout the childish stuffs that i'm hanging on the bag..
well, yeah, it's true that i really like them a lot. very2 much ok?!
i'll rather just do anything for them..anything!! err..sounds like a fanatic fan already i guess??aisshh
ok2, back to the point..erm..
for the time being now, i know that i'm dreaming about this SHINee bfs..which i also know that the chances that i'm going to be close with those boys is 99% beyond my expectation..i mean, almost every girls in this universe have this dream right?so, hah! i'm not the only exception to this!it's a normal feeling for us girls to have this kind of feelings!
err, why i like to talk about nonsense things again, far away from the real topic? T_T

ok2, i'll just expressed it seriously in words from the bottom of my heart..
the reasons why i'm attracted to this korean stuffs are just to get rid off away something out of my mind, and also, currently everyone knows that i just love those SHINee boys right? i seriously want to find someone that can kick my ass out from my dream world (all the korean thingy) to the real world.. (but please, don't kick it for real, i still love my own butt. HAHA)
if there is one guy that can make me fall for him, help me move out to the real world, face the reality and challenges in this whole wide world, i'll not feel hesitated at all to accept him as a partner of my entire life..

but seriously, i've found that it is REALLY hard for me to be friend with any man nowadays. it is not because of me being too choosy.. all those stuffs about korean boys that i really adore about them is their attitude..they are really...ahhh..too hard for me to explain it, it is so unexplainable, which in other words, they're so AMAZING..one of the attitudes that i really like about them is they always being humble to others..and, keeps on smiling 24/7.. =D. it is not because of the word "celebrities" is making them have to do those kind of sweetest things, but it comes out naturally from them..it just pop out like that, seriously, i'm not making any stories about that =_=!!
so, maybe that's why it's hard for me to accept any kind of man now..i'm not looking on the outside, i'm looking on the inside..because ur physical appearances that u've always been proud of about will not last any longer, it'll just fade away after 10,20 years later..but, if u managed to discover something which it is comes from inside of someone's body, then, that's what i called 'beautiful', which it is something that deserve for us to be praising or proud of that precious 'stuffs'..that 'stuffs', not just it'll remain longer, but also, eternity..

so, who dare to take the challenge after knowing the 'qualifications'?? HAHA =pp



and, i'm still in my dream world after all..
i don't like the real world..seriously i don't like it at all, every secs of my heart beats..

funnyyyy

seriously, i'm laughing so damn fucking hard when i saw 'that' in someone's tumblr that i've found just now.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
maybe because i also have the same experienced like that person did? =p

what is 'that'?

funny isn't it.?HAHAHAHAHHAHHA
arghh, i'm laughing for the hundred times i guess. =p

i really like her answer, 'skydiving'. wahahhaha

AWET MUDA

this pic when he was 16 years old.
(how could a guy look so adorable at that age?)





this is d current pic, he's 20 years old now.
(but, he still have that kind of childish face, or shud i say, "awet muda"?. care to share me some of ur tips to look younger? =p)

but what more important is, he's not fake!
fake here means WENT THROUGH A PLASTIC SURGERY.

i'm so pissed off right now

yeap, yg amat. seriusly.
yahh, perlu ke nak over reacted till you've caused a problem to him?
by any chance, did you noticed dat u have injured him?
thanx to you, he can do WELL in his performance now..
singing while SITTING?!
i'm really so damn pissed off with a-who-so-called-shawol fan perhaps.
i mean, ARE YOU REALLY A SHAWOL?
i think that you should be proud, making them singing in a rough state.
back off, screw you..you're worst than a nut.

one guy have a problem with his ankle accidentally, causing him n the other members cannot dance like they always enjoy to do.

(to indon people, please behave or restrain urself from doing something unexpected for d next time when any stars coming to ur hometown.)

katak oh katak.

currently, my mood is = katak.
y katak? because i like katak.
y i like katak?because katak is cute...
(something is definitely going wrong with me today, talking nonsense again n again, juz like 2pm song. =p)

perhaps, wud u like to see the pictures that prove that katak is adorable,cute,funny,beautiful,bla,bla,bla..........

PLUSH TOYS

OTHER CUTE STUFFS

AND...THIS IS MY DREAM.. =D

i'm sooo gonna have this baby's stuffs for my baby, in couple of years later laa of course..
is my child going to be end up like frog also? aishhh.

and also this stuffs.. =p

habeslah anak aku.. =p

heheheehehehehheeheheheh

title hari ini agak pelik..
yerlah, tetibe je gelak.gile ke hape?
adeyhh..
tuan2 dan puan2..
tolong jangan mempunyai tanggapan yg 'sedemikian' pabile melihat ape yg akan terpacul di bawah ini yer..
alaaaahhhh..cam lah korang tak de perasaan camnih jugak kann??HAHAHA
(or mungkin aku sorang je yg ade perasaan camnih?err)

TOLONG JANGAN SALAH ANGGAP KAT SAYE.SAYE HANYALAH MANUSIE BIASE SEPERTI KALIAN JUGAKK. ='(

ehemmm2..
saye akan berase lelaki itu HOT pabileeee ..........

rambut die panjang sgt kat bhgn depan kepale, sampai tertutup mata dgn tidak sengajanye. (sape suruh simpan panjang2?!)

bile org tuh ade bear yg besar gedabak sebelah die.lg HOT kalau lebih besar.HAHA.jenuh nak mengangkat.

pemakaian beliau berkonsepkan hitam? (tak de lah sampai jd cam black metal tuhh)
tp seriusly sy suke tengok lelaki yg berkulit cerah memakai pakaian berkaler hitam. OUTSTANDING.

ouh, n lupe nak cakap, + rambut panjang.heh.tp kene tengok jugak kene ngan muke ke tak.


pabile die memegang payung, cam ayu gitu.haha.tp tak de lah samapi nampak cam nyah.geli kot

comeyh lak payung die, ade renda2 gituu.pinjam bleyh bang?HAHA


and aku suke tengok senyuman org yg ade manisnye.i mean, lips n gigi die menampakkan die lg manis.org tertentu je ade 'manis' tu.

n..jeng jeng jengggg..nih kot plg aku suke.heh.. =pp

tak nak cakap kenape aku suke d last pic.
ok, bye! =p

sandara park

this is sandara park from 2ne1.
gosh, i really love her, everything about her!
she's so amazing to me, she's my fav girl idol. =D

beside her is CL.
i like her too.. =p

below are some crazy pics of dara. =p
eventho she's is kind of crazy, but she's still cute and stylo.
that's what i like about her.
(hey, i'm not lesbo, still have feelings for man!)

yahhh..jinnjja kyeopta!
neomu neomu juahyo!
^^,

u're such a playboy

Hey playboy
It’s about time
And your times up
I had to do this one for my girl you know
That’s the only way you boys learn

I can’t ever forgive you for that lipstick on your collar
Every day, your phone’s always off
It doesn’t seem like you’re going to change

All those girlfriends you call “friends”
Don’t think of me in the same way as them, I won’t let it fly
From now on, do as you want, I’m going to stop caring
For some time I really loved you but..

Sometimes you get drunk, and call me, now it’s 5:30 am
Again you say another girl’s name no

I don’t care, I’ll stop caring about what you’re doing wherever you are
From now on I really don’t care, I’ll get out of the way
From now on don’t come to me and cry, and cling on
cause I don’t care
Boy I don’t care

Stealing glances at other girl’s legs
You’re so so hopeless
Everyday you take off your couple ring, and secretly go on a blind date
I don’t think that I’ll be able to take it anymore

My friends say that you’re not really worth it
You even went to your wolf-like friends for advice but
I’d rather keep it simple, I’m too good for you
I believed you were my love but..

Today you said you were busy, I tried phoning you but
As expected, in the background I heard a girl’s laugh oh no

I don’t care, I’ll stop caring about what you’re doing wherever you are
From now on I really don’t care, I’ll get out of the way
From now on don’t come to me and cry, and cling on
cause I don’t care
Boy I don’t care

Because of you, I remember crying till dawn boy
I regret every time I think about you when my heart was too easy, huh boy?
I’m too good to throw away and too boring to have
You should’ve treated me better when we were together why are you clinging to me now

You fooled me with your lies hundreds of times
From today on, I’ll be a bad girl who makes guys cry
Now without a single tear, I’ll laugh at you
Loser who’s inside a game called love
Get on your knees and take me back
If not, get out of my sight right now

Boy I don’t care..

by 2ne1.

-i'm not that kind of cheap girl dat u'll find on the street or even in the club. don't pretend that u're that nice.shit.