it's almost 1 year.

what's the title about?
for those who are close with me might know this thing..
and..haha..i'm already sick of the questions of dozen of people keep repeating the same question..
and, for sure lah, i'll give the same answer in returns, despite of how many times these people asked.. i know that they're not satisfied with my answer actually, that's why they keep on digging it. >__<
sometimes yeah, have to admit that it kinds of annoying and irritating to answer it millions of times!
especially to the creature who names as a 'guy'..
that's why i rarely open my facebook account know. =_=!!

i'm pretty sure that all the people around me know that i'm such a big fan to kpop artists now. just like i'm addicted to drug i guess?haha..
fyi, i have this 'unbelievable' feeling about korean stuffs after i've to face tons of huge things..
well, it's actually happened about 9-10 months ago..
i tell u what, that period was the horrible period that i've to suffer all by myself..
it was really worst than a nightmare, and for god sake, i HOPE that it was JUST only a nightmare.. but it was real..damn real..and, seriously, i'm really tired..
till the last moment, i said to myself, " i should be happy that i'm still survive, i shouldn't be thinking about the past, and just focus to the future, and lastly..enjoy my life to the max while i'm still young.."
but err.. did i just being extremely over enjoy for the time being now? especially bout korean thingy? damn it. HAHAHA (seriously need a remedy to chase this korean dilemmas away. it's getting worst everyday.someone please call 911. heh )

there was one time when i felt really angry with my lecturer.
he said " go on, just keep on dreaming bout those stuffs. bout ur bf that u'll only meet in ur dreams everynight"
actually both of his eyes were focused on my keychain at my bag, while he said that kind of stuff.he saw lee taemin picture on that keychain..
i know, most of the people will feel super duper irritated right, when someone is saying something so spontaneously out of his mouth, didn't even watch out every single words that they're saying to us..
at that time, my heart said, "can i just zipped his mouth off?"aishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..
but i knew very well that lecturer, he's that type of man, not thinking first before saying..aigoo..

but, what i want to point out is not bout the childish stuffs that i'm hanging on the bag..
well, yeah, it's true that i really like them a lot. very2 much ok?!
i'll rather just do anything for them..anything!! err..sounds like a fanatic fan already i guess??aisshh
ok2, back to the point..erm..
for the time being now, i know that i'm dreaming about this SHINee bfs..which i also know that the chances that i'm going to be close with those boys is 99% beyond my expectation..i mean, almost every girls in this universe have this dream right?so, hah! i'm not the only exception to this!it's a normal feeling for us girls to have this kind of feelings!
err, why i like to talk about nonsense things again, far away from the real topic? T_T

ok2, i'll just expressed it seriously in words from the bottom of my heart..
the reasons why i'm attracted to this korean stuffs are just to get rid off away something out of my mind, and also, currently everyone knows that i just love those SHINee boys right? i seriously want to find someone that can kick my ass out from my dream world (all the korean thingy) to the real world.. (but please, don't kick it for real, i still love my own butt. HAHA)
if there is one guy that can make me fall for him, help me move out to the real world, face the reality and challenges in this whole wide world, i'll not feel hesitated at all to accept him as a partner of my entire life..

but seriously, i've found that it is REALLY hard for me to be friend with any man nowadays. it is not because of me being too choosy.. all those stuffs about korean boys that i really adore about them is their attitude..they are really...ahhh..too hard for me to explain it, it is so unexplainable, which in other words, they're so AMAZING..one of the attitudes that i really like about them is they always being humble to others..and, keeps on smiling 24/7.. =D. it is not because of the word "celebrities" is making them have to do those kind of sweetest things, but it comes out naturally from them..it just pop out like that, seriously, i'm not making any stories about that =_=!!
so, maybe that's why it's hard for me to accept any kind of man now..i'm not looking on the outside, i'm looking on the inside..because ur physical appearances that u've always been proud of about will not last any longer, it'll just fade away after 10,20 years later..but, if u managed to discover something which it is comes from inside of someone's body, then, that's what i called 'beautiful', which it is something that deserve for us to be praising or proud of that precious 'stuffs'..that 'stuffs', not just it'll remain longer, but also, eternity..

so, who dare to take the challenge after knowing the 'qualifications'?? HAHA =pp



and, i'm still in my dream world after all..
i don't like the real world..seriously i don't like it at all, every secs of my heart beats..