50-50

sometimes i feel like wanna give up on study..
it just like, maybe i've found something that i'm really good with..
but i know that my parents will not support me at all if do that kind of thing in the future..
ya, i know that 'thing' doesn't have good side from any view at all..
perhaps, maybe becuz i'm a 'muslim' also..
so that may be kinda hard for my wish to come true..
but i'm really good in that kind of field..
is not like i want to appraise myself or 'bangge2 kan diri' that i have that kind of talents or what..
but what i know is, when i'm doing that kind of thing, i'm really enjoy it..
goshh, life is so hard..
when people forbid you to do one thing that u're really desire to do so..
ur intention to do it will be increase slightly,it's vice versa..

but now,
that 'thing' only remain as my hobby only..
maybe that good for now..
i guess..


p/s : i really want to meet him..dear God, please make my wish come true..